"¡Eres el rey de mi vida¡"

Hi. Honestly, I don't know where to start. It's been 2 months. I missed this environment, where I can write my rants and frustrations. A lot of things happened and I can't go on details.

I was screwed, helpless and - oh so lame - the last time I left this blog.

So what's up with that doomed love affair that consumed my sanity?

Let me put it this way:

Everyone wants to be loved and needed, particulary by the person who just broke up with us. I understand (I should). What could be better than hearing from the man who just told you he didn't want you in his life anymore, his sad, wistful "I miss you so much" voice on the other end of the phone? It's validating. It's exciting. It's freaking irresistable. You fucking bet - But resist you (I) must.

A guy says he doesn't want to be with you. Sometimes that guy realizes he's made the biggest mistake of his life, and then sometimes he doesn't. Either way, the only role is to move on with your life, and fast. He can always try to chase you down as you're running down the block.

The greatest thing I've learned:

The only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing - everyday, not to be with you. (Whatever... hahahah)

Being lonely, being alone, for many people sucks. But let me say that for some time, I have realized that being with somebody who makes me feel shitty or doesn't honor the person that I am is WORSE!

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I've got soooooooo many things that I would love to share to you...

To make it short, I think I'm liking someone. (weeeee!!)

But everything's not so sure..

Well, for now, I'll just enjoy.

Because I fucking deserve it, and I deprived that to myself for a long time.

Goodbye drama. (i hope) haha.

and...

"Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with... Coz I already have one as*hole and I don't need another one..."

-Tentay

This will be the start of my chapter II...